I guess I've been a little lackadaisical on updating my blog... but that's just because I'm not too interesting, or interested in anything lately. Plus, all my thoughts I normally like to keep to myself, mainly because I'm in a constant battle to decipher what the hell I'm talking about. Haha, I'm just trying to sound cool, I'm not that crazy. Really though, one of my favorite parts of the night is when I'm half asleep, between the stage of being aware, and being asleep, where you're like kinda half-dreaming. That's where all my best thoughts come from, and they've been a great inspiration for lyrics. The only problem is whenever I'm half-asleep, and I try to make a note of them on my phone, and they end up being all cryptic.

The way my mind works, pieces are linked together pretty often, so if I make a mental note to remember a certain thing, or a series of things, by remembering something else, in a smaller, more generic way, I'll remember it. It can be pretty unconventional. Or maybe it isn't, I don't know how other people's minds work. If that doesn't make any sense let me try to consolidate my thoughts here. Basically, I can look at something, just any simple thing, (it can be a single word) and I can allow it to proliferate into a manifested cogitation, from which I can easily express an array of thoughts, into something that will be useful to me. For example, in school when I would take notes, I would merely write down one word, and from that one word, I would devise everything I would need to know about that specific question, sometimes even a whole test, and that would be me studying. When I'd look at everybody else's notes, they'd have a full notecard, in small writing, and I always thought I was doing something wrong with my note-taking. I thought maybe I was just taking notes incorrectly, but looking back, I adapted my thoughts and practices to the way that best suited my needs, which frankly is human nature.

It's just my nature has always been different from everyone else's; I've noticed I have been more schizophrenic in some aspects of things, things I am comfortable with, but when there is something I'm not comfortable with, I'm oftentimes more reserved, maybe even shy, or unsure. It's harder for me to think about something that I've had no experience with, but as soon as I learn what I'm doing, I always try to find my own way to do it.

Oh well, I think I got a little carried away. I think I'll stop before I come more exacerbated. Ciao!